It’s true that nobody said it would be easy.. but no one bothered to say it would be this hard. I guess it just feels like I am chasing my tail or something. The moments when I get lost in my thoughts and really have to think about what is changing, I find myself paralyzed in fear. How can I possibly change all of it? Nows my chance to recreate myself.. but will I be able to do that is the answer I need.